A New Beginning

By Kandan,

He woke up to the sounds of birds and some dogs barking in the distance but the most distinct sound he heard was of the waves pounding on the sea. He slowly looked around him; he might have slept for some time .His friends were not there. He blinked his eyes to adjust to the warm sunlight and what lay before him was the most beautiful sight he had laid his eyes on ever in his life. The sea was clear devoid of any human form or shape, the crystal clear blue water lay spread before like a canvas waiting for the divine brush to lay on it. The blue sky with fluffy white clouds extended beyond it and above him the sun shining majestically on the scene. He felt the warmth of the sunshine as it pierced through his outer skin and he felt the pure energy seeping through him. It was like he was being cleansed from the world above.

He slowly got up and was only mystified by the beauty of the place, the mountains and trees slowly wafting in the gentle wind that blew across the land completed the most serene and heavenly atmosphere that could have been created. He walked towards the waves as they splashed across the rocks. The sound of the waves was most pleasing and it was something natural that did not seem out of place. In fact nothing seemed out of fact. The waves touched his feet and went back, and soon they were back and again left him. He just let his senses takeover him, and his thoughts which were so many suddenly were none. He was in a state of equilibrium, a feeling of nothing, a feeling of bliss. He was not happy, he did not think, he did not move and it was the state of mind that he experienced which gave him such pleasure that it was worth leaving everything behind.

He closed his eyes and the sun rays hit on his eyelids and the warm sensation eased his body into relaxation. Never did he think about this and he totally forgot everything around him. The sound of the waves resonated in his ears, he felt the sunshine on his skin and his mind was set free. He smiled in wonder at this state, of what he felt. It felt like eternity before he opened his eyes and he shuddered at the thought of such experiences. He saw the distant boat; he looked at the small houses far away removed from civilization. Life so far was like the waves, ebbing back and forth but he had no idea he was already a quarter century old. The childhood memories, the teen fantasies were replaced by the realistic acceptance of things that were not possible.

Yes he could not emulate Sachin Tendulkar, he would not be able to land on the moon but they had served purposes. They gave him hope; they were something he might have lived for. He sighed. Such is life. Here today, gone tomorrow. He knew he hardly had another 60years on this earth if he was lucky! Sometimes time just is, the people who are the ones who come and go.

There is always a spark in every child, a curiosity, eagerness and a mind to do things. But somewhere along the way things tend to wane, things tend to get lost. But today suddenly he felt like that child again, wanting to go beyond his limitations, wanting to go beyond that job he had. Everyone has a fucking job! He realized he had but one life, the satisfaction of constantly challenging himself was what he looked forward to everyday. But then where had he lost that feeling that had kept him charged for so long. Why did he fit into the norm, because it was easy or to just to appease people who are supposed to matter to him?

He looked behind him; he looked in front at the waves. He did not pause, diving full length into the water he swam like there was no tomorrow. He left it behind. It was a new beginning.