He was no longer in the army - it did not suit him he thought. Poor soul ! His fall to disgrace was worse than he thought. People viewed him differently. Those piercing eyes killed him more than a thousand arrows that pierced his heart. He had won many a battle in his life - but sad - he could not handle this. A world in which - a failure was worse than a person who had never tried. Strange are the ways in life - he thought!
He made his way back to his people. He had lost the spirit in him to stand the combat - his heart ready for a rebound. I must go to my people - he thought! So he did. Picked up his gear and made his way back in to the holy land he had come from!
He expected a rousing welcome - a welcome,that would arouse his heart. He cared, not for the people around him - but for his family. Pity that, he had never expressed that. But he had always believed in one thought - if you care for someone - it shows in your actions and that is a better showing that a thousand words. Action is better than words - somebody had been right. So did he think. And such had been his life and his actions throughout. But little did he know - that people need not think the same.
He failed to understand - why you need to constantly establish in front of people - how much they mean to you? It beat his mind . Sadly, so did his people. The touch had gone. And so was the telepathy. May be - he had changed - he dint know. But little did he know that his people would fail to understand him. But the inevitable had happened.
He had always thought - once you know a person - you know him for life. That might have not been the universal law. But he always believed that. But the power of universal law had overridden him. Only thing constant in this world is change. He had to learn it the hard way. No longer could you - go and talk to people the way you did before. They would have met different people. Priorities would have changed. He grinned. Priorities change. He was no longer the person that people would care for, leave alone caring about him first.
He should have thought this over. But alas, his mind and heart failed to capture the great laws that the universe had laid. He looked up to the skies and thought about the ONE, He just hoped he would stay true - just as he thought he always would be. The never changing phenomenon - that had stood the test of time. Probably, thats why he is called GOD.
He talked to the people. He saw the bashing in their eyes. It was relentless - he had lost the battle once more. A battle of minds - that he so often seemed to fail to understand. Once again! He always knew - people did not understand him. He felt it was cool! But that was not to be. He was feeling bad now. Nobody knew him. He cried. He threw his head out of the world. But alas that did not help. The tirade continued. He stood helpless like a boat standing in front of the a giant tsunami wave. He was tossed like a mass-less object. But he stayed calm. He couldn't talk further. Anything he did would utter - would invariably screw up things like never before.
But there was hope. Probably, he thought.Rather hoped! He went to one person - he had relied on since he had met him. It was the hermit by the lake. Probably, he was more than a person - he felt. The only one - he looked for advice in a life that had been driven my personal convictions. It had been easy to be branded as a selfish guy. But that did not matter much to him. The society had always laid down his rules. But he was not the one to stay with those. His weird thoughts had got into not-so-good relationships many a times. But hardly he had cared about those.
But it hurts when the people you think are your closest to you, do not understand you. Either you failed the people, or they fail you. Does not matter who is wrong or right. Wrongs and rights! He laughed. These were just terms people had devised to impose there opinions on others. Who is say what is wrong and what is right. These were just perceptions. People often choose to see things, they way they want them to see. If your perceptions happen to match with the other person - Bingo! you are lucky. But that was not the case every time. He did not think he would have to leave his touch with his people to trivial things such as opinions, perceptions or even luck. But again he had to bow down to the might of universal laws - People choose to see things, they want them to. It does not matter who they are - may be your own people, may be your friend and even your family - Hardly matters!
He was dejected. Like a tiny mass of ice embroiled inside a galloping avalanche. He had been consumed. Not that he was perfect. But he did not feel the need to be perfect - at least when he was with his people. But that happy-faced-go-lucky was a creature that everyone expected - even his people. As soon as you don't hurt people's egos, or stay within limits - just speaking what they expect you to speak - rather what they want you to speak. He learned something else - Play the game by the rules, no matter who the opposition was.
He always knew this. He had heard this before. But now, he realized it. Difference! The heart had not only been bruised, it had been scratched and mauled. The comforting words of the Hermit, only calmed him - far from soothing him. He had seen the ugly side of people. He had to live with this for life.
No point in thinking - why things turned this way. Because they were just people. And they behaved as one. He could have been wrong. But again it did not matter. The ship had been wrecked. And he had to live with it. He learned his final rule - Agree with people - that's what they want. Even a logical disagreement would not cut ice. But a dishonest agreement would definitely would.
He went inside his mind. Amazed by this realization - he thought of the ONE. And decided to live with this truth forever. He would have loved to say - Don't worry be happy. But life hardly gave him a chance to do that. Try not to worry and hope to happy - that's the best he could amass.
Thinking thus, he dozed off into sleep. Hoping the world of dreams, would be better than the real one.
